Tears wont longer do. I'm at my very worst. These feelings are making me the most miserable human being ever. I have nowhere else to tell this to. No one to be my confidante nor my confidant. Crying is no longer the solution. The only thing on my mind now is pain. Inflicting pain to myself because somehow the physical pain is more bearable than the pain caused by the heart.
When your heart hurts, you wanna heal it but because you can't actually see the wound. There's nothing to be mend (literally). Therefore it's hard. It's hard to make the pain to go away. It's going to stay and you are not making my wound any better. Everyday, you add salt to it. Making it worst. It's as if you did it on purpose. Just to torment me. Maybe you enjoy seeing me hurt this way. Maybe you find pleasure seeing me in pain. Maybe. Just maybe.
I'm lost. I feel so distant.
I'm sorry.
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