Life as it is

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April has only begun but already there's so much things going on. So much decisions to be made. Sacrifices that have to be done.

University life is finally taking its toll on me. With responsibilities and so much things to do, I get wear out. The thing about me is that I think too much at times. More when I get stressed out and when this happened, I find it difficult for me to focus in class. How am I supposed to get Dean's List with this attitude?

Another thing I wanna talk is about unfairness. Do you know that feeling when you know your teacher is not being fair to you? When she gives people she likes high marks. Some people might say I'm overreacting, but after 3 assignments and 1 quiz, turns out my first impression on her wasn't that wrong after all. I'm not happy but I realized how life is unfair. I know I shouldnt be making a big deal out of it but I feel so discourage. When your friend with the same answer as you gets higher marks and you are left with just below average marks, it just discourages me even more when I know I have put effort in doing my job. Yes, I know this is a way of Allah to test me but it doesn't mean I should just keep quiet about it. I pray that Allah gives me strength to accept this and just do my very best. InsyAllah.

I just feel the need to write this down because I believe by writing something down, I can let that thing out of my system. Its hard keeping everything bottled up inside.

Sometimes I wish I was 7 again. ♥