May

It's already May.

May has always been a special month for me as it's my birthday month. I have always like anything related to May. Like for instance, the number 5.

Unfortunately, my 1st of May started badly. Well, not really considering the fact that I got new things in my closet now. But that's not the point. The point today is that I feel lonely even though I am being surrounded by my parents. It's just sad when you're mad/disappointed at one person, but you let all those anger and frustration out on someone else and you just can't stop feeling guilty. It's just not fair to be mad at the wrong person.

I do admit that I do get emotional on a regular basis but I just couldn't help it. When someone has been hurting me the same way over and over again, and keep on apologizing for the same mistake, I just cant stop thinking whether that person really feels sorry for what he has done.

Fuck this. I'm going to sleep.