Senyum dengki tengok orang kahwin pada usia yang sangat muda.
I WANT THAT TOO.
 

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DEGREE : RM12,000-RM15,000

..2ND DEGREE/MASTER : RM15,000-RM20,000

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KALAU XPANDAI "MASAK" 

AUTOMATIC AKAN DI TOLAK 50% 

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- Sumber BERNAMA

 

Now I know the reason why guys go gay.

-.-' 

Feeling like crying.

Now I remember the reason why I broke up with my ex. Because apparently, I dont understand him and I didnt try hard enough to understand him. I only think about myself. I am a selfish heartless bitch. Maybe I shouldn't be in any relationship at all.

I AM FOREVER ALONE.

We are almost at the end.

My first semester as a university student is coming to an end and personally, it has been an amazing journey. I met new friends and I've changed into a (slightly) better person. I used to have this problem where I don't get along well with people. It would normally take me a few months before I get to know someone and normally, I'll just stick with one person because I'm not that friendly.

But I've learned during Matriculation days that is not good to be dependent on just one person because when you give all you have to that one person, and when that one person decides to back stab you, you are left with nothing. Frankly, I don't want to go through that again.

It's nice to have so many friends and no matter where you go, there will always be familiar faces and that tells me that I am not alone. There's nothing wrong with being alone but there's also nothing wrong with having friends.

Note to self : Learn to appreciate my friends more.

Miserable

There are times you feel sad and whatever you do, that feeling doesn't seem to go away. No matter how many times you remind yourself about how silly that matter is, you cant make yourself feel better.

You just want to be as miserable as you can, because you now have a reason to be miserable. Even if you have the choice not to be miserable, you still choose to be miserable. Because right now, miserable seems to be the only option that gives you satisfaction.

I am miserable as hell right now and I am planning on staying this way.

And there's nothing you can do about it.

Second update for the day.

It's lunch time but I'm fasting.

So here I am in the library trying to come up with something good to write.

Lets talk about something that I have passion for currently ; DEBATE.

Since high school, I've always wanted to join the debate team but till the end of my school days, I didn't. The reasons to why I didnt go for debate was ;

1# I dont have the confidence.

2# I always thought that it was too late for me to start debating

I've always been around debaters back then. For instance, Ezzah, Aina, Bey and Ayzie who are amazing and talented debaters and these girls are responsible for putting the idea of how fun and cool debating really is in my head. Talking to these people and you'll get tons of new information. Watch them debate and you'll be impressed. Another thing I like about debating is the bond that debaters have with each other. How they look out for each other, the fact that they share everything and they support each other through thick and thin. Awesome relationship right? But because I was afraid and never seem to have the confidence to pursue that dream, I had to let it go.

So there goes my dream of becoming a debater.

What came next was definitely the highlight of my life. After matriculations, I got accepted to UiTM Bandaraya Melaka for International Business course. It was my first choice so I was ecstatic but I wasn't really psyched that I got Melaka (again). 

Anyways, turns out that KBM has its own debate club which is The Rhethoriks Club. Do you know that feeling of an old spark that has already dies out starts to ignite again? It's like seeing your old flame or crush and feeling butterflies in your stomach all over again.

That was exactly how I felt. I know that not everyone is lucky enough to get a second chance and this chance only come once in a lifetime. I'm not going to waste it again. I know how most people are afraid of taking chances because they are scared that their dream doesn't turn out the way they want it to be. Well, I was one of them. I won't deny the fact that I was scared and I wasn't even sure on how this whole debating thing will turn out for me.

But there is one thing that actually leads me to the decision that will forever change my life ;

REGRET.

Regret is a strong feeling that one will eventually have to life for the rest of one's life and I don't want to live with that. I don't want to look back and regretting not trying out for debate. Regretting not doing something I really wanted to try out. Regret will haunt you till the end of your life. See. It's a powerful thing.

I didn't have anything to loose. I've done so many things that I've regretted doing and I'm not going to add one more to that long list of 'Regrets'.

And guess what? I don't regret joining debate one bit! It's an amazing experience and to know that I don't suck in debate makes me feel grateful for this chance that God has given me. I'm still learning but I really hope one day I'll be good at debating.

So readers (If any), don't be afraid to pursue your dreams because you might not know what lies ahead.

The First

Aku kira menulis blog memerlukan perasaan. Apabila kau berada dalam satu keadaan yang kau tiada feeling mahu menulis apa-apa, maka hasilnya juga kosong. Sama lah macam sekarang.

I'm not in the mood but all I want to say is,

Bismillahirahmanirahim kepada permulaan suatu yang indah.